Awake, Sleeper....

Awake, Sleeper...........

I know its strange to say but I have had dreams that from time to time have come to pass in one way or another I wanted to share one of these dreams...

I had the dream while still in High School sometime in 1990-92. I was walking down a bricked tunnel it was dark and wet and at the end of the tunnel was a old wooden door I open the door and was blinded by the light shining on the other side. It was so bright it woke me up. I still remember that dream clearly...
From then on I had a longing for that something on the other side of the door.
I spent the first half of my adult life searching and looking for that thing that would bring fullfillment completeness and end to the searching. My sister gave me a journal shortly after I graduted high school. I remember looking back through it after years of writing in it. And there was a common theme through those years that kept repeating.... " I felt something was just around the corner, it seemed I was at the door or close to breaking through"...

In 2001 I opened the door and I realized then I had it all backwards. I wasn't seeking I was hiding. I was hiding from the truth that we all know deep down, but in one way or another we all seem to try and drown it out, hide, or pretend its not there. The Truth and Light had found me, this Light that showed me myself was Jesus...
As I stood there exposed by the Light, the weight of my guilt and shame brought me to a place of brokeness. For the first time I didn't try to justify myself, I didn't try to ignor and run from what I saw and felt. I just stood there and listened to the WORD of God as it wash my heart.......
I heard that God loved me not because of who I am, what I have done, or how good I was.
He loved me because, God is LOVE. It is who He is, we can't earn it we can only accept or reject it... He showed me this Love by taking my sin and shame upon himself and I let Him... in return he gave me LIFE and I accepted it....
I didn't know at the time what all that meant and still don't fully understand how he could forgive me, but what I do know is that I was cleansed and set free from that darkness, that heaviness of my shame........I was FORGIVEN....... and now I know that I need Him. I can do nothing apart from Him, but with Christ all things are possible. He is the HOPE I hold on to.

"Behold, I stand at the door and knock;if anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him and he with Me."
Revelation 3:20

"you were formerly darkness, but now you are light in the Lord; walk as children of the light." Ephesians 5:8

" But all things become visible when they exposed by the light, for everything that becomes visible is light..."Awake, sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you." therefore be careful how you walk, not as unwise men but as wise, making the most of your time , because the days are evil. Ephesians 5:13-16